post graduated

Graduated..graduated..
What a happy moment..
But..what happens from before to after that big party?
It's really need a lot of effort!!
Some people, like me, so focus and totally all out for that two big moment..
And not thingkin obout my self.. Of course, as a leader.. I have to focus!
That two moment give a various feeling..about one and the others..
Its full with a happiness, sadness, madness, tired,.
And I can't or I didn't want to think about the other problem..
So old school of me..

Now..after that two big event..
After I finish my job..

I have much problem to think and need my attention..
Family..
Job..
Mariage..

Which one I have to think first?
Which one I have to set as my priority?

My bad is, I'am a kind of introvert in my family..
We have a lack of communication..
Buat we all have a stone head!
And I don't want to tell how I feel..but He too, can't hear my voises..
Don't you know? I do my daily live far from u, but it's not like I don't like you..
I respect you, you are one of my hero, but I just have my own way..
Please understand my choise..although I can't understand u either..
The way we communicate is wrong..bad.. But please just trust each others..
I love u all the way you are..

And then for you, my job..
I know I'm not a tough,brave one..
I want to do what I like, what I can..
May be not a good big and promising job but I'll do my best with all I have..

And youuuuu...my future family..
I know I have to face it..
Don't have a reason again..hahahaaa
I allready choose him.. The one who can make me feel warm..
I hope we'll be happy together, and forever..
Love u soo much!!